Wedding crazy!

I've been so busy, I haven't posted in a while! I just got off of the phone with my mom and she's been wedding shopping for me. She told me that she got me a lot of kitchen stuff. Altogether, Brandon and I have a buttload. Not really, but it seems like it. I'm really stressed out about wedding and college right now but its not too bad. In the next couple of weeks I'm supposed to find out if I get the first generation scholarship I signed up for. I really hope I get it. I'm so stressed out over it because I'm hoping for it so much!! Anyways, I'll write more later. I have to go and do my FAFSA tonight because its due on Thursday.

Court

Today I went to court...and now I'm on probation. Crazy, right? Well, if you knew me then it'd be crazy, because I never get into trouble like this and I did. The thing is is that I missed too many days of school. I skipped a day because I didn't feel good so I went to my mom's and hung out. Anyways, I'm bored. I won't miss anymore school, of course, so I won't be able to participate in National Skip Day. Oh well. I don't think that the seniors are skipping anyways. Next week, the seniors don't have to be at school until 10:30 each day (Tues. - Fri.), which will be great!! Yippee!! I'm going to have to tell Carly that she'll be riding the bus, except for when we all go and eat at IHOP. Yay!! Yum! Anyways, I'm in an okay mood today. I need to buy a car charger for my phone tonight.

This weekend

This weekend was pretty fun and that's exactly what I needed. Brandon and I went to Dallas and shopped all day. It was fun. I got the cutest dress at Macy's. I love it! I also bought Brandon some brown striped shorts. He got me a cute AE purse. I also got a cute nighty from Victoria Secret and a free pair of pantys (that I gave to Carly). I had a lot of fun. Tonight I thought I had to work, but it turns out I don't, which is awesome!! I'm going to go by the bank and Wal-mart, after I go by the house to drop Carly off. I'm browsing on Craig's List right now. It's pretty neat. Anyways, I'm bored out of my mind. I'm ready to go home! I want to see Brandon tonight but I doubt I can because he's going to Shawna and Aaron's to watch movies and whatnot. Tomorrow I go to court for failure to attend school. I've missed like 2 or 3 days over the limit and so I'll probably have to go to either summer school or Saturday school. Anyways, I'm now browsing on Kelly Realtors looking at houses for sale so I'm going to go!

Waiting for it to be over...

I'm just sitting here in my school library hoping that the bell will hurry up and ring. I wish I could be out of here, now! I'm having to wait for my sister to get out of class before I can go home. It stinks. Tonight I'm going to see Brandon. I don't know if I'm going to surprise him at his house or if I'll see him at volleyball. Either way, I'm going to see him. I'm sick and tired of everything that's going on. I hate it. I want high school to be over.

I'm so sick...

I'm so sick of high school. I seriously want to quit right now!! I'm kind of in a bind right now too. I've missed a lot of days and I may have to do Saturday school, but I don't want to! I just want to get out of here and move on with my life. I'm thinking about going to this "school" called Success. If I went there then I would graduate in just a few days. Less than a week for sure. I'm debating on it. I'd love to graduate with my class, but I just don't know about it right now. I'm so stressed out about planning the wedding and going to college and some stuff with Brandon and I'm just sick of it!! I really want to just get out of here. Now!

During my next class I'm going to go and talk to my college counselor and figure out if I would still get my scholarship to MCC if I went to Success. If I would, I'll go. I know its pretty dumb of me to leave whenever I just have a month left of school, but I really can't handle it right now. I can't. If I get out of school quicker, I can work more and make more money, which I need. I'm really depressed right now. I can't handle all of this stress of graduating. I mean, I'm scared but I'm ready for it to be over all ready! Even though I already have my invitations and my cap and gown (which I'll just give to Carly) and I'll try to sell my invitations. I just really want out right now. I'm struggling with too much and it's really hard for me because I'm just 17. I can't handle this much! I just need to really talk to someone about everything. I called my friend Sarah, who went to Success like a month or two ago, and it took her a week to graduate. A week!! Anyways, I'm just really bummed right now.

There's a girl in my grade that is having to do the same thing as me, but she's going to go to summer school or saturday school. I don't want to though. I don't know why. I think it's because I just want out right now. I'm tired of coming to school. Maybe its because I'm lazy. That's pathetic I know. Why do I need a high school education whenever I'm going to college. I mean, I'm a senior and I have a month left of school. What else are they going to teach me?? Nothing. I mean, I'm getting married and I'm only going to college so that if anything happens to Brandon, then I'd be able to support us. And if I do ever get a job, it'll either be something to do with writing (books, possibly, or news, or something!!) or photography.

It would be so cool to start my own photography business. I would be thrilled. I know it would be hard, but it'd be worth it to do something I love to do. And just maybe, maybe Carly would join in with me. I don't know though. I have no idea what she wants to be. I know she likes kids and stuff to deal with kids. Whatever. I wish that I would have gone to Success whenever Sarah did. When she went, I was mad at her for leaving. I can't remember. She had her reasons though.

Anyways, enough of the depressing stuff.

This Saturday, Brandon and I are going to a really cool (and expensive) mall in Dallas. I'm excited. I really need a little day trip. Especially with Brandon. Him and I are kind of rocky right now, but we're working on it. And no its not his fault, its mine. I'm the stupid one. At least he forgives me. I'm the luckiest girl in the entire world. I'm so happy with him. He gets me through my hard times. I think I might go see him tonight, unless we play volleyball, then I'd just see him there. This week, I missed two days of school and I don't even care.

These days I've been so negative about everything. I don't know why. Well, I do, but I don't care. I've drained myself by caring so much about school and I'm tired of it. See! It's all I can talk about. I tried to go onto a different subject, but I just landed right back talking about this crap.

10 minutes until class is over.

Later.

Joy!

Well, here I am again. Typing up my thoughts about nothing at all really. I've just experienced another lazy day at school. All the seniors can talk about is senior trip. Really. A few weeks ago, all everyone could talk about was prom.

But that's how high school is. That's how teenagers are. We change our minds all of the time as to what we care most about, what we want to do. I don't know, I'm just in a thoughtful mood today, I guess.

Tonight I have play rehersal. Joy! I'm kind of excited...in a sarcastic way. I mean, I'm so busy I don't know if I can also be in a play too!! I have to deal with working, planning a wedding, high school and getting ready to graduate, and trying not to be a crappy fiance.

I hope I get to see Brandon tomorrow night. I'm not sure if I get to or not because I don't know if I have to work or not. Before I go to rehersal I have to run by my work and get a new schedule and I also need to run by the library and drop off the books my sister and I checked out. I also need need NEED gas money!!

I've been so stressed out lately and I know I'm about to "start". I was supposed to like 2 weeks ago!!! It's the stress!! It's killing me. Last night I slept so good, even though I froze my buns off!! But this morning I woke up and I felt nice and toasty. I didn't want to get out of my cozy bed!!

You know what? I hate my school. I'm serious. My school used to be so hick-bumpkin style and now its ghetto-fabulous. I hate it. I feel soo bad for my sister whenever I graduate!! She doesn't hang out with kids in her grade because they're all skanky.

My friend, Sarah, is getting married on July 3 of this year and she wants me to do her photography!! I'm so excited. Brandon's sister Shawna said that if I didn't have my camera (the one I want my dad to buy me for my birthday and graduation gift) then she'll let me use hers. Hers is pretty good too. I'm glad that she trusts me with her camera. I want to take Sarah's pictures with a nice camera, not my digital camera. I want her wedding pictures to be awesome quality!! Anyways, I'm excited!

I think I'm going to go now because the bell is about to ring and I'll have to move on to another boring class. Later.

Busy, busy, busy!

I'm so ready for school to be over. Then I can move on to a harder school. Yippee! At least while I'm going to the harder school I'll have Brandon's company. :) I'm so happy right now it's crazy. I'm in BCIS and I have like 25 minutes until class is out. I have to go home, pack for my mom's and get ready for work. I think I may have to drop my sister off at my mom's. I don't know. We'll see. I'm dressing comfy for work tonight. No fancy shirt for me!! I'm wearing a cute plain shirt. He He. Anyways, I can't wait for summer! I'll be working at Chili's, taking a couple of classes, and having fun swimming and planning my wedding!! It's going to be a super crazy summer! I can't wait to get it over with. What I really can't wait for is all of the showers. The couple's shower and the bridal and groom showers and the rehersal dinner. Speaking of rehersal, I have play rehersal next Monday. I only have three lines in the whole play because I don't have time to memorize lines for a play and try to graduate too!! Ha ha. I think I've wrote enough for the day. I'll write again ASAP. I'm going to go and write Brandon a note. Until later....peace love and band aids.

Senior Trip

...is the only thing that everyone in my grade can talk about. It gets irritating. Anyways, I'm excited right now but I'm not sure what about. Today I got my planner together and I realized that right after Brandon and I get back from our honeymoon, we'll be going to the coast with his family!! I'm so excited! Lately I've been trying to be super organized. Yesterday I had to go and take the "Quick" THEA. Quick is an understatment. They allow you 5 hours to complete it. It took me 3 and a half. Anyways, I had to take it for a scholarship that I'm receiving. I'm so excited about that too. I'll be starting college this summer, which will make my life even more stressful and busy, but I don't care about that. I'm just happy that I'm marrying Brandon and getting to finally go to college. Yesterday it was so close to me not getting to take the test that determined my future! I was so scared I nearly cried. You see, I get out of school at 2:35 and I was supposed to be at MCC at 3:00. Me being the stupid girl I am, didn't think to leave school early enough to get to MCC on time. Right when I did get to MCC (speeding the whole way) it was exactly 3:00 and I ran to the Lecture Hall (where I thought the test was being held) and found out that the test was somewhere else. I had no clue where so I hurry up and turn on my dead cell phone and call my high school to talk to my college counselor Mrs. Zach. She wasn't there. I then call the lady that told me that I even had to take this test, Ameena, and she told me that it was being held in the Testing Center. Duh, you'd think. Anyways, we get to the testing center and Ameena asks the lady if they've started and she tells me that I can't have my purse with me. So I run all the way to my car, throw my purse in and sprint the whole way back. Then when I get back, the same lady (whom also told me that I didn't need my I.D.) asked me if I had my I.D. I explained that she had told me not to bring it. She goes on about how I should know that I need my I.D. "Blah Blah Blah". I ask her if she wants me to run out to my car to get it and she tells me that I don't have enough time. This is where I nearly start to cry. I thought that she would tell me that I would be disqualified or something because I didn't have my I.D. Then she just tells me that I can go ahead and go in and sit down. I was so happy but I was still shaky for the next 30 minutes because of sprinting so fast! That was definitley my exercise for the day! Anyways, I got to take it thankfully and I think I did pretty good. It was 136 questions and a essay. It was soooooooo long!! Well, the bell is about to ring but I'll try to write more in BCIS. My next class is in the main office and I cannot stand my new teacher!! I miss Mrs. P. My new teacher is seriously so lame. Well, I guess that's all for now. Until next time.....

Peace, Love & Sour Cream!!


Dena

It's been a while...

It's been quite a while since I last posted. This was originally going to be my wedding blog but I figured I'd just make it a whatever blog. :) I did have a blog on wordpress.com but now it is blocked at my school so I can never get on it so I thought I'd just restart one on hear since it obviously isn't blocked. Yay. I'm in my BCIS class and I'm extremley ready to go. I have to be at MCC at 3:00 because I got a scholarship that I have to take a 5 hour test for. Yippee. I'm excited though that I got the scholarship, kind of. Today I gave blood and I felt kind of dizzy but I'm okay now. Well, I guess I'll go since the bell is about to ring. Hopefully I'll do decent on the test.